It’s been almost a year since I said
bye to you
I’m still trying to face my fears;
it’s nothing new
Hurting you, my dear, was never my
intention
It wasn’t right to hold on; you
called it desertion
Fond memories of you and me are
crippling
These tear soaked sheets have been
silently drowning me
You were perfection; I asked you to
marry me
I’m still staring out of my window as
the leaves change colors and then fall to the ground
The trees I see look as bare as my
heart that has left you feeling less than safe and sound
I know you said your love for me was
as strong as my love for you
Even though it felt as though you
second-guessed my love for you
Don’t you realize that all I had, I
gave it all to you?
I pray you’re happy now without me
there because you truly do deserve the best
Keep your head up, love, and, like
always, trust that God will handle the rest
I sent my mom on our honeymoon, since
you and I will never go
I paid it off with the money I earned
while trying to give you a home
Three countries, seven days, the fun
we could’ve had, we’ll never know
It’s been almost a year, now, my
dear, and I still feel alone